as this long day come to an end, i question myself;

"is all these slogging worth?"
"what do i get in the end?"

sorry. been really pessimistic these few days. countless of thoughts went through my mind. people seems to be more scheming and deceiving than before. someone once told me that trust is something that can be very vulnerable but yet strong and firm. i dont understand, and nv will i.

school has been pretty tough these days. i cried for the first time in my whole poly years over work. its too taxing, too demanding, too stressful, too unreasonable. yes, i do know that we are at the last leg of the race, but i guess i really dont have the energy to carry on anymore. the thought of quitting school is always on my mind right. yes, call me anal, cause im that anal. SO?

so the day has ended and i still cant find the answers to my questions.