these few days i will just wake up all of a sudden at ard 11 to 12 in the noon.. im tired, but my mind refused to let me sleep.. so i would just lie in bed and let my mind wander and sinking into deep thoughts.. so i think back on the way im living my life rite now, so the conclusion is tha will die early than predicted.. seriously, u tell me larz; late nites, alcohol, smoke.. and so i began to fear for my own life.. i can forsee the sickness and suffering that im going to get when i grow old or whatsoever.. so in order to save myself and future offsprings (hahaha), i have decided to stop living my life this way.. so i came up with a resolution: 1. club only when needed to (this means that less booze, less smoke and less late nites! 3-in-1), 2. reduce my nicotine intake (its time to quit anyway), 3. do something healthy from now on! (maybe like excercise, blah blah blah).. i suddenly feel good.. hahahaha.. alrite, watch me do all these..

after that, i still refused to get my ass out of bed and tried sleeping again.. but in the end i gave up and i recall everything he said to me the other day.. it gets so scary.. it is like a wake up call for me.. i shouldnt be that trusting and navie! but sometimes it just gets too tiring if i have to be cautious of everybody that im dealing with.. so sian..

dowan to think liao.. spoil my lovely sunday.. so decided to get my ass out of bed and bathe.. so sian.. dun have the shower foam that i like.. did i just mention its a sunday? which mean im meeting my girls 2ml for sakae! yummy yummy! i have whining for days about this.. i wana eat my fried tofu, soft shell crab temaki, chawanmushi, gyozas, blah blah blah.. making myself hungry only.. so sian.. *yawn* shall go back to sleep!

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