i was trying very hard to figure out what on earth have i gotten myself into and how did i do it.. i cant help but to feel tt i am wasting my life away every min, every second.. and i realise that i have to have a new life mission and vision coz my current one would not last me thru the rest of my life.. so what will my mission be? maybe something like: "Save like there is no tomorrow"? hahahaha.. sounds abit corny lehz.. cannot larz.. how about: "Save and enjoy life at the same time"? aiya.. why all so corny one? jia lart.. damn terrible.. but have you noticed, the two missions that i have came out is all about saving? i need to save, for my future, for my old, dying years.. cant help it larz.. alot of things have to consider.. i cannot cont spending lky this.. nxt time how im i going to live? haiz.. in this world is all about money.. is all about being rich and famous.. bah.. the society is just so realistic and conservative.. tts what i hate about singapore.. but all other things aside, i love singgy.. coz it allows me to go clubbing till late at nite..

so ytd was my third CCN day in tp.. i just love this feeling.. students helping students.. well, we all noe tt there are alot of more unfortunate ppl than any one of us.. ppl who got financial problem.. sometimes they cant even fork out to have a simple meal of chicken cutlet.. well, my heart goes out to all these ppl.. but seriously, mantaining a poly student is not tt cheap.. you see ar.. our sch fees per year amount up to maybe lets say 2.5K, den the annual allowance, lets say $400 per month, 4.8K per year, den im not done yet, the transportation fee? students lky me who take bus everyday to sch, $52 per month, $624 per year.. tt would be $7924 per year!!! or maybe even more, your handphone bills, your clubbing fees, shopping? maybe more or less $9000!! im shocked!! the amount of money is not small ok!! haiz.. the cost of living so high.. i suddenly felt worried.. wat if i got a child who is a poly student? wah seh.. i have to slog so hard just in order for him or her to graduate thru poly.. wat if the kid wans to study in an overseas Uni? gosh.. tt means more slogging.. alamak!! bless the kids and me.. or maybe bless me with a rich husband..

you noe i have just learnt how to understand guys.. i nv noe tt they need assurance too.. well, at least the both of us are trying to accomodate each other.. but i still feel the coldness in this.. dun ask me why.. I NEED ASSURANCE TOO OK!?!??! haiz.. so sad.. no mood to do alot of things recently.. just dun feel lky it..

now everybody is toking about money.. money money i love money.. but, i was never fated to be good friends with money.. it will always leave me at fast pace whenever it was in my hands.. im known for spending money lky water when i have the ability to do so.. damn jia lart lehz.. my dad just told me tt im alrd 19 this year and im still spending money lky this.. hahaha.. but who cares? i still got back-up one!! muahahahaha..

eat eat eat.. i love food!! another reason why i love singapore.. there is so many good food all around!! i wana go on a food feast soon, anyone wana join? we can start from geylang, changi, serangoon garden, bedok 85, wherever got good food, then we shall go.. wah seh.. so hungry now!!!

this entry is so random.. just here and there, pieces everywhere.. just lky my life.. so messy, so fucked up.. haiz.. if all things would be more pure and simple.. if people are less selfish and self-centered..

all so wrong.. but i cant care much.. im off to enjoy good food!!