my head hurts,
i couldnt sleep.

guess the pain is getting intense by the day.
the nights when i cry myself to sleep,
feeling this self-inflicted pain.

i wish i could stand up high, face my friends and tell them bravely that i want to move on, i want to step out of this, i want to let go and never look back again.

but why?
why cant i just do that?

i hate to be vulnerable, i hate to be weak. i hate the fact that my tears flow that easily.

`is like a cycle. 'crying myself to sleep every single night'