i was talking to sunny a few days ago about me having no confidence in uni at all. i am feeling the pressure even before i start my semester in this new environment. i admit!! im afraid that my cant meet the expectations of my family (you know the guilt that i have for letting my parents and brother to pay for my education is taking over me day by day), thus resulting in me being reluctant to start school and do my best.

i really dont wana see my parents working so hard just to finance me in my education. it just makes me feel that i did not do a good job in being a filial daughter.

its like a re-enactment of what happened 3 years back, when i have to choose which instituitons should i further my studies at. that time, i had this huge uncertainty inside me. and im afraid that i might make the wrong decision that i might regret in future. and now, im experiencing all these all over again.

and this time round, i seems to be at lost.

what to do next after my degree?