you know during my girl guides' era, i can confidently acclaimed that im good at conflict managemet. whether it is between me or the other or other against other.. but now as the years go by and we all grow up (besides all of us are peace lovers), conflicts among each other seldom occur, and which means that my "excellent" conflict management skills cannot be put to good use and thus resulting in my current failure.

i hate to say this; but seriously, i cant focus or stay neutral right now. i cant justify what is right and what is wrong. i cant give constructive comments for the others on how to settle all these shit once and for all. it's seriously harder than i expected.

i hate to see my friends hurling negative comments about each other, spinning rumors about the other party and causing commotion in the group.. where were the happy times we used to share? sticking by each other thru every unhappy things that each of us have? spending long hours together talking about bo liao stuff and bitching about things in our every day life? where were the long talks we have on the phone laughing hysterically and fighting for talking time? where were the irregular breakfast meetings we have during the holidays? where were the "clinking" of cups in clubs and shout: "pass me the money"? it's sad.. pity things have to turn out this way.. cant we all think simpler abit and life would be happier?

well, all i wanted to say is that life is very very unpredictable, it's like this afternoon i went pass my house void deck there were kids playing there and parents gossip about i-dont-know-what.. but went i came back in the early evening, the same void deck has turned into a venue for a funeral.. get my point? so, we never know what will happen the next day.. so if we all can just sit down, pause for a moment and take a deep breath and feel that the world is actually very beautiful and innocent. (ok, i crapped here)

at the very least, i just hope that all the things will clear up and things would be the same again..