love is seriously a funny thing, u nv noe u have fallen in love with tt person until u loses him.. its been a long time since im being affected by all these shit.. im so shaken..

anyway, zouk last nite was fun! coz i got to go to the MEMBERS area! u see ar, when can u get the chance to go into the members area of one of the best clubs in spore? but nth much larz.. the ppl there are still v. much the same.. just tt the couple of celebrites add some glamour.. and i got to touched this "defunct" celebrity's waist.. WAIST OK!! hahaha.. i used to lky him.. find tt he got the charisma and bad boy kinda of look which i used to love..

since we are at the bad boy topic, den lets tok abt these boys.. what is the definition of a bad boy?
a few scars on the face? big and loud tattoos? smoke? fight? speak vulgarities once they open their mouth? wear big big gold chains? tok very loudly on the handphone? sit at coffee shops and drink tiger beer? alamak, why im listing things tt a ah pek do? ok side-tracked.. but then all these bad points tt a bad boy has, one thing for sure is tt they treat their the other half with the utmost care.. duno why.. tts why last time i always yearn for an ah beng bf.. he doesnt have to be a chief of some gang but then if he is an ah beng, den he appeals to me.. hahahaha.. coz i always believe tt these ah bengs have this loyalty thingy in their blood.. now i noe why angie will tink tt way.. these ppl are real, coz they noe who are their frens, and they will stick by a fren no matter wat.. they can be loud, they can be gross, but behind all these their innermost is what appeals to me.. REAL!! but come to think of it again, it is not realistic to have an ah beng bf or husband.. u tell me ar, how far can u guys go? u mean he is gonna be an ah beng forever? how much can he earn base on his "profession"? maybe u guys will lead a poor life with many kids.. coz he mite have spent all his money on tattoos and handphone bills and they dun watch tvs, so the only entertainment they can find is "u-know-what".. hahahahahaha.. no larz.. all these are my perception.. but i dun discrimminate these ppl.. in fact i love them.. coz they always add some topics to my thoughts.. if not i wun be blogging abt them rite now.. but the saying goes: "nan ren bu wai, nu ren bu ai".. translation: "if the man is not bad, the woman dont love" muhahahahaha.. wat's these man? but get what i mean? women just love bad boys! aahh.. better translation.. but tink the saying applies to angie only.. hahaha.. im sorry darling...

my life is getting more and more exciting.. and tts a good thing base on the fact tt the country im living is so dead.. and there is nowhere u can go at nite besides movies and clubbing.. spore standard of living is way too high.. and the kids nowadays are getting richer and richer.. i remembered tt my pocket money when i was in primary one is $1 per day.. and when im in secondary sch then my pocket money slowly increase to $5 per day.. now u look at the primary one kids, the are getting more than what i get when im in secondary sch.. NOT FAIR! but nvm larz.. at least im not spoilt and weak lky them.. hahaha.. but seriously, if i were to be a parent, i wun spoil my child this way, it will nuture him to become some materialisitc playboy.. who tinks his dad owns the gold mine.. even if his dad does, i still want him to be humble!! wah seh.. if im a parent ar.. and if i marry a rich boyfriend.. but when will tt day come?? god pls shower me with good-looking rich men, age between 21-26.. thank you.. so now who is the materialistic one?

money create wonders.. ppl respect you, ppl suck up to you, ppl will do anth to favour you.. it just makes me sick.. and these ppl will just disappear when u are broke or wat.. is just lky if i become some megastar 2ml earning millions per day, i bet some desperate bugger will claim tt he is my fren, or maybe even worse, my ex-bf.. den he mite write a book abt my past, how i behave privately and earn millions just by riding on my fame.. coz ppl would want to know more abt me.. not shy! who cares? im just fantasizing..

but nvm larz.. ppl do have dreams, but tt definitely is not my dream.. if i were to be a megastar, i would just lost all my freedom.. FREEDOM!! yes!! tts the word..

i believe i can fly,
i believe i can touch the sky...
drink red bull,
red bull gives u wings...