when i walk along the streets, i juz feel lky kneeling down and cry.. cry it all out.. its been so hard for me to control and take everything under my stride.. hug mum ytd while she was crying in my arms.. mum got sick.. its been a long time since she had been sick.. grandma was seriously ill.. SERIOUSLY.. i really duno wat to do.. it hurts me to see her cry.. well, i guess i cannot avoid all these animore.. i cant ignore all these disturbing issues rite now, i cant pretend tt everything will turn out the way i wanted them in the end.. they wun and they will never be.. its time for me to face all these and hopefully i can brave thru it.. i pray everynite for god to give me strength to carry on, give me to courage to face all these myself, show me the light to walk thru this long winding road.. i duno.. i am so lost and tired.. i dun wana wear a mask animore.. i noe i am not strong aftall, i noe i am not a happy person aftall.. but well, i will try to remain positive..

i always think tt everything happens for a reason.. grandma's condition got worse maybe bcoz god wans to end her sufferings and take her away, mum fall sick bcoz she need her well deserved rest, i am born into this world bcoz my mum needs me, my frens needs me.. but who can i turn to?

i love everybody who is in my life rite now.. i am saying this juz in case i dun have the time..